thanks to you, and thanks to me.

Thank you for this pain

As it has connected me more

to my self

My core self,

my true self

My self that I forgot

My self I hold dear

My self that is the most important

and most beautiful feeling I’ve

Forgotten how to feel

I am not mad at you, I think

But I am mad

of all the expectations

Our story has created

In our minds

(only in our minds)

I am mad I wish

We didn’t create all those stories

In our minds

(only in our minds)

Maybe it would be easier

Now that is hard

But would it be easier?

Now I know it’s hard

I see the end

And I am sad

I see there isn’t anything left any more

I see there is no you

I wish we didn’t create our stories

Now that I see there is no you,

I wish we stayed on the ground

But the ground is very heavy

The ground is so harsh

And you and me

We are flakes of snow

confused and wondering

Looking for that place

That wouldn’t be as heavy

wouldn’t be so harsh

I thought it was you

You thought it was me

But it’s none of us and now

We have to look for it

I wish you all well

As I love you and forever will

But not through all the stories

Not through any dreams

Now I will love you through

All my heart

And my self

My core self

My true self

That I now have gotten back

Thanks to you.

and Thanks to me.